Sometimes I wonder if I really am adopted. You know like when your little and you think you are but your not, sometimes I still believe that, even though I know I'm not. I think my brothers are legit special. Not special as in a joy, special as in special need or education. I don't know what goes through their minds. Basically it boggles me. They just thought right now fireworks would be a good idea, why?? I don't know, I wish I did. I grew up surrounded by men, and boys. I still just don't quite get it, my mom must of worked me really hard to be feminine with all those Barbies. I have 3 brothers, out of the 19 cousins I have 3 of them are girls, whom I am not that close to. I'm frankly surprised I suck at sports as much as I do, its disappointing.
Today was cold, windy. I walk to babysitting which i previously mentioned. It was a long afternoon, the one year old who I watch and who I'm basically there for, did not nap long like she should have. It was an interesting afternoon. As I was leaving the Dad, Bill, was finding out his sister had cancer, so sad.
Ugh I am so right about my brothers.
Peace
Thursday, February 5, 2009
Wednesday, February 4, 2009
in need of something
This is weird, because the last time I did this was myspace and no one read it. I'm fully ready to accept that. My friend Bill Langevin inspired me to start this again because I saw his, and I miss doing this. So I'm going to try and say whats really on my mind and not hide what I'm really feeling...It's hard to do and be so open, especially when you know how open this is.
So I have been incredably bored lately. It's hard not having people you care about around. I have Meghan, which is great because she lives so close and we've been best friends since we were 6, but it's also hard because she really just wants to go to Ambrose. That gets hard to listen to after a while, I still love her though, and I'm happy she's here. Today was really fun with her, we went to Mr. Sub, a mecca for drunk high school/college kids, incase you didn't already know. We also danced to the classics aka *NSYNC, BSB, and Britney. It really made me miss my childhood, because that's all we did. Also it made me feel really lucky that I have that with Meghan, I'm really lucky we're still friends.
So know what sucks? Long Distance relationships, yeah they reallllly suck. Just for the fact that one person is clearly busy allllllllllllllllll the time, and I'm not. Yeah it is really no fun, and it going to have been almost a month since I have seen him last. We haven't really talked about it, so I don't know if he's feeling like this. We'll find out soon enough.
My friends Cece, Molly, and Dan are coming home Friday. I'm quite excited about that. Cece's Grandpa died, really sad, I believe that's why Molly's coming in. Dan just hates Ambrose, like full-hearted. I feel bad, I know how that feels, and you just want to leave. At least he's has friends there and has the ability to go visit other friends at other schools.
I think that's enough for tonight, I started reading Eclipse, I've been too involved in my laptop being fixed to pick it back up and read it, but I will again soon.
So I have been incredably bored lately. It's hard not having people you care about around. I have Meghan, which is great because she lives so close and we've been best friends since we were 6, but it's also hard because she really just wants to go to Ambrose. That gets hard to listen to after a while, I still love her though, and I'm happy she's here. Today was really fun with her, we went to Mr. Sub, a mecca for drunk high school/college kids, incase you didn't already know. We also danced to the classics aka *NSYNC, BSB, and Britney. It really made me miss my childhood, because that's all we did. Also it made me feel really lucky that I have that with Meghan, I'm really lucky we're still friends.
So know what sucks? Long Distance relationships, yeah they reallllly suck. Just for the fact that one person is clearly busy allllllllllllllllll the time, and I'm not. Yeah it is really no fun, and it going to have been almost a month since I have seen him last. We haven't really talked about it, so I don't know if he's feeling like this. We'll find out soon enough.
My friends Cece, Molly, and Dan are coming home Friday. I'm quite excited about that. Cece's Grandpa died, really sad, I believe that's why Molly's coming in. Dan just hates Ambrose, like full-hearted. I feel bad, I know how that feels, and you just want to leave. At least he's has friends there and has the ability to go visit other friends at other schools.
I think that's enough for tonight, I started reading Eclipse, I've been too involved in my laptop being fixed to pick it back up and read it, but I will again soon.
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